[sticky entry] Sticky: who am i?

Sep. 14th, 2021 11:29 pm
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BELLA ‣ SHE/HER ‣ TWENTY-SIX ‣ +65  
SCORP  INFP  DAYDREAMER

I write, I love, and I dream.

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punch drunk, dumb struck, pot luck happy, happy

are you happy now?



 
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💭 2024 wrapped ⋆. 𐙚 ˚

 
looking back on my 2023 wrapped as I write this and it's insane to me how I thought I had a lot of growth last year – it's nothing compared to THIS year, I'd say. this year has been filled with a lot of trials and tribulations. god, the things that i put myself through this year is crazy, i've beaten myself up so much over and over yet at the same time, i've achieved so much. something someone said to me recently is to take things slow. as simple as that sounds, i wasn't able to. life felt like a non-stop rollercoaster that sped up every day, with endless obstacles in the way. 

I've lost so much this year yet I gained a lot too. I created so many memories, learnt a lot about myself, met a lot of new people and hit a lot of milestones. 

that being said, let's get into it :)

happy new year 🌟 )
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💭 2023 wrapped `✦ ˑ ִֶ 𓂃⊹


we are here! it's been quite a turbulent year to say the least. i think i've had the most growth this year and as a fresh 25 year old, it feels fitting to have experienced and achieved these things in my mid 20s. it almost feels like an evolution of sorts – owing it all to my 17 year old for the great hustle.

looking back, i come to a realisation that i've created way more than i've consumed content. this is largely due to the nature of my job and of course, the fics i wrote (year in review fic edition will be coming soon!).

now, let's get into it!

happy new year, pals! )
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 grief a medley


You hold an absence 
at your center,
as if it were a life.

-- Richard Brostoff, grief


I sat on a gray stone bench
and placed my grief
in the mouth of language,
the only thing that would grieve with me.

-- Lisel Mueller, when I am asked

I want death to take me if it has to,
to spare you,
I want it to pass over.

-- Kim Addonizio, prayer

I take out my throat,
but the grief remains.

-- Alessandra Lynch, couplets

Grief, I've learned, is really just love.
It's all the love you want to give but cannot.
All of that unspent love gathers in the corners of your eyes,
the lump in your throat,
and in that hollow part of your chest.
Grief is just love with no place to go.

-- Jamie Anderson

I needed to make a world,
where I could look for my grandmother once she left this one.
I invented a world because death is unknowable,
and someone I loved was about to live there.

-- Ramona Ausubel

-- Holly Warburton, spirit hold
 

I sat with you beside your bed and cried,

for things that I wish I'd said

-- The 1975, nana

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fic commentary #1: dancing with our hands tied

 

I'll be touching on the topic of my first long fic in the nct ficdom and that is dwoht! I had to abbreviate it, motherfucker is quite a mouthful to say lmao.


i'm a mess but i'm a mess that you wanted )


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mind over matter is magic (i do magic)